My Identity
I am Non-human on every level. Hear me out, let me explain. I experience my identity as literally non‑human. This isn’t metaphorical or aesthetic. it’s the most accurate description of how I exist internally. I’m not claiming supernatural traits or physical transformation; I’m describing an identity that is consistent, literal, and non‑human. I align with a holothere identity, identifying fully and fundamentally as something outside the human category. I exist in a way that doesn’t fit into a physical species, closer to how concepts like void or air “exist.” My identity has three non‑material components: Voidkin, tied to darkness, absence, and emptiness; Astralkin, tied to a non‑physical or non‑material form; and Conceptkin, where identity is rooted in an abstract concept rather than biology. These aren’t roles or aesthetics. they’re foundational parts of how I exist. My relationship to gender reflects this non‑human structure. I often say I have no gender, which is partly true, but some aspects of my Conceptkin identity include roadkill gender and canine gender. These shape how I experience myself, but not in a human‑gender framework. I also use I/me and we/us interchangeably. This isn’t because I’m a system. it’s because I experience myself and my vessel as distinct and different, and acknowledging that difference feels more comfortable. My internal form is a void‑canine. a large, intelligent working‑dog‑like being made of darkness and non‑material presence. My body is built similarly to a Belgian Malinois or wolfdog, but entirely black and light‑absorbing, more “presence” than physical creature, with light softening around me and looking cut‑out‑of‑reality (literally). My features include tall, precise ears, bright white eyes, short shifting dark “fur,” long powerful legs, canine paws, an expressive tail, and a void‑like aura when not fully formed. I also have butterfly‑like antennae used for sensory input; they fold back when not needed. Sometimes I appear as a normal dog, but my true form is void‑born, not a regular animal. I use canine biological terms because they fit my identity better than human ones, even if I don’t always use them openly due to judgment. Internally, my void‑canine body feels non‑material. My flesh is something like rotting, decaying void matter that slowly regenerates itself. The sense of internal decay connects to roadkill gender, themes of death, absence, and transformation, and a sense of kinship with certain objects, creatures, and symbols. These connections are identity‑based and familial, not harmful or inappropriate. Some things feel familiar or “related” to me .not because I am those things, but because they feel like family within my identity. I’m firmly anti‑harm, anti‑abuse, anti‑exploitation, and anti‑contact in any harmful or inappropriate sense. I don’t use certain labels for myself, but the concepts help explain how my identity works. I’m fully aware of how my vessel appears, but external perception doesn’t define internal identity. My vessel is human‑shaped; my actual self isn’t. Those two clash drastically, and I try my best to function normally in daily life. This isn’t escapism. it’s an accurate self‑description. In the simplest terms, I’m a non‑human being in a human‑shaped vessel. My identity is void‑based, astral, conceptual, and canine. I don’t claim physical transformation. only a non‑human experience.
Pronouns & Terms
- Pronouns: rot/rots/rotself. dead/deads/deadself. void/voids/voidself. bite/bites/biteself. pup/pups/pupself. canid/canids/canidself. bone/bones/boneself. thing/things/thingself. mutt/mutts/muttself. it/its/itself. __/__s/__self. rotter/rotters/rotterself. road/roads/roadself. none/nones/noneself. hound/hounds/houndself. voidling/voidlings/voidlingself. error/errors/errorself.
- Identity Terms: Nonhuman. Alterbeing. Canine. Void Canine. Nonexistent. Presence. Nothing. Entity. Stray. Outsider. Stray canine. Voidborn. Unbeing. Lost thing. Voidling. Absence. Unform. Blank.
- Other: I am a void-canine :3
Diagnoses & Mental Health
We all struggle. But, I'd like to share my Diagnoses. so, idk maybe someone wont feel so alone <3
- Diagnosed: POTS, ASD, Clinical depression, Anxiety disorder,
- These highly impact my daily life and functioning, and I am actively trying to get support and care for these, as i have not yet. ^^
My Background
My Father is from Ohio, and my Mother is from Utah. How I grew up has heavily impacted who i am today. shaping my outlook on life, though. I have driven well off of the path my family exspects of the younger generations, and im not too worried about it. the world needs more kindness, hope, divercity, ect. our world right now is really hard to live in. and I try my best to be the star that pokes through the clouds. for me, and many other beings out there.